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To: alt.satanism,alt.magick.tyagi,talk.religion.misc,alt.pagan From: tyagi@houseofkaos.abyss.com (nocTifer) Subject: (Z) Into Satanist Religion Date: 29 Apr 1998 18:13:42 -0400 49980429 aa2 Hail Satan! References, Definition, and Retrospective on my Satanism -------------------------------------------------------- re Satanism references of value: are there many references? I'd love to hear about them. the closest thing to a good reference I've found was _Satan Wants You_ by Arthur Lyons. others seem to have their own agenda and even Lyons was a bit biased. the best reference online about Satanism I've seen is my own: http://www.abyss.com/tokus and I recommend that you see it for yourself (Smackers especially). re Neopaganism in comparison and the 'definition' of Satanism: Satanism seems to exascerbate and glorify *individualism* in a way that Neopaganism may only occasionally emphasize. that is, Satanism seems to include a great many more things than may be safely described or defined. it would be rude for me to say what the limits of Satanism are. I consider "satanism" (the projection and condemnation scheme which many Christians have been supporting for many hundreds of years) to be a part of Christian religion, unfortunately, and to an extent the Satanism which has been created was in response to this bogey-making. re whether Satanism is a 'viable religion': Satanism is a viable religious complex, though its emphasis on individualism makes the catch-all title 'religion' a somewhat awkward identification. this is the case with many large religious systems that diversify beyond being able to easily encapsulate them (e.g. Christianity, Buddhism, even Wicca). re 'how I decided on the Satanist religion': the questions along these lines 'how did you decide', 'how did you arrive at the conclusion of', 'how did you become', with regard to religion have always been confusing to me. they unintentionally imply that the process of religious discovery is commanded or directed by the conscious mind or ego, that we have a choice set out before us (e.g. vanilla, chocolate, and strawberry) and that we carefully taste each one before we select one (ostensibly, like straight-square marriages) for the rest of our lives. how many times have I heard those who have converted and some who have been born into traditions say that their religion reflected their values and the nature of their being to them and so seemed as if it was a ready-made path for them to expand into? setting out the markers of those who have gone before us, doesn't a religion allow us to grow in ways we never could have imagined along lines of natural rhythm and desire? these things were very true for me in my growth into Satanism as I am so very eclectic and syncretic, enjoying a mishmash-personal-composite of religious practice and focus that, for me, includes almost everything that draws me. I was taught to love nature. I was taught to oppose unwanted and unwarranted authority. I was taught that freedom and the restriction of individual liberty was a travesty, and that those who engaged it (politicians, demogogues, etc.) were evil, should be avoided when necessary, ousted when possible, and generally opposed. this is doubly the case for those who impact the wilderness in negligent and exploitative ways. coming from such a background, devoid of "religion" in any ordinary sense except when I explored outside my mother's protection (often taking flight from it as they -- typically Christians -- sought to ensnare and enslave my mind with their memes and ethical puritanism), I was, as I entered my early adulthood, simultaneously obsessed with understanding it and what value it appeared to contain. needless to say my mother was always confounded by this and it has been a very large difference between us. mysticism and community drew me, and dogmatism and lack of skeptical analysis repulsed me. this was the case as I joyfully entered into the companionship of Neopagans and, later, after studying for a year or two with some Wiccans (Gardnerian, CA line), became initiated into the OTO. by this time in my life I had developed my own style of ritual, conceived of rudimentary cosmologic preferences (built atop my love of intelligent hedonism and scientific inquiry into all things), and entered into a relationship with an intelligence whose nature I still do not completely understand (I have called Her 'spirit guide', 'Demon Queen', 'Holy Guardian Angel', and 'Kali Ma', my wife as I engage a solitary monastic practice I know to be 'tantric' through Her instruction). so my main interest in initiation into OTO, for example, was as a suggested challenge by Kali, not really to find myself or discover something through social religious tradition. in fact, more often than not (as in my Wiccan instruction/exploration) I was a kind of sore thumb, questioning things, exploring the possible limitations of what I described as 'psychospiritual technology' (mystical and magical disciplines), and generally challenging where most around me were interested in conforming and getting the Dance Steps right. a solitary amongst coveners. there is alot about Wicca I adore and I still consider myself Wiccan by my understanding of its basic principles. this is something I could *not* say about the Thelemic religion when I ran into it in my Order (Gnostic Mass, various devotional and magical liturgies, etc.), since my early love for science and Crowley broke me of seeing 'Thelema' in any but philosophic and ethical code or set of principles aligning and supporting the magical enterprise. after about 10 years of such exploration I felt a need to pursue my tantric monasticism in greater earnest and this necessitated a rigorous change of lifestyle and occupation. searching for the proper combination of ethics and energy in association with economy that I have come, in my Buddhist ways, to know as 'Right Livelihood', I inverted my schedule to that of my society and undertook both a radical paring of my personal goods and a fairly hermit-like existence that served to distance me from the Wiccan and Thelemic communities. for the next 7 years I would both intensify my activities online and begin a depth study of what was called 'Satanism'. it seemed a natural progression to me to see what was behind the 'Satan' mask as I had that of the 'Witch'. things taboo and forbidden have always been a subject of my fascination, and as I began to look at the diversity which is Satanism I was intrigued and inspired. I'm afraid I'm leaving out quite alot here that was part of my personal religious life, such as my marriage to Kali that was the formal initiation of my monastic transit, the construction of a temple in which I lived whose focus was both a large Kali altar and my central instruction via the dakinis who surrounded me on the walls (they are Her entourage or shakti-power as I understand them, and provide for the interested the wisdom of the cosmos), and my discovery of my church (the Church of Euthanasia) whose ecological and pro-death intent was indicative of deep insight as I understood from the beginning). as I pored over texts, interviewed Satanists and contemplated what Satanism could be and had become, I was struck with several revelations. one was that 'Satan' is wild nature and Kali Hir sakti or power; perhaps SHe is an hermaphroditic composite of the dakinis from whom I learned so much (I have never even considered this progression until now). another was that SHe was a dual-gendered being, along the lines of several images I had constructed or seen within magico-spiritual communities (both Thelemic and Wiccan -- often called 'Baphomet' and very often shown on tarot 'Devil' cards). another, which became of intense interest to me, was the pact with Satan that had been so important to Gardner and many others from the Faustian tradition which has loomed so large in Euro-american literary and media history. I understood that a variation on its carriage (that seen not from the Christian but from the Neopagan perspective, blood-pact with the Lord of Nature) was a potent and transformative rite. I was of course inspired to undertake such a rite, and to dedicate my life's blood to wild nature (Satan) for the traditional exchange of the satiation of my desires (these being centrally indicative of the ravage we humans are making of our non-human kin). it was at this point (96/6/6) that I entered into a formal and overtly acknowledged Satanist path, though I feel that I have always been a Satanist (as I have discovered I am Wiccan, Buddhist, Taoist, Muslim and even Christian within very specific parameters frequently dismissed by the 'righteous'). the label correctly locates me as opposing the Christian society in which I live, with its procreationist, anti-wild, values, discloses my deep and abiding love for wrathful imagery and the Dark Pagan Gods (who seem to have largely have been forgotten or left behind by Neopagans, turned into 'demons' by the Judeochristian dualists -- I'm glad to say that there *are* Dark Pagans), and, in my openly acknowledged eclecticism, supports the possibility of a united ecological front defending non-humans from the exploitation and disrespect that so many religious fail to see is contrary to the spirit of their most profound ethical codes and spiritual instruction. I would be quite willing to engage questions regarding the above or other subjects and will try to take whatever I write and forward it with a rephrasing of the inquiry to public forums. I'm shamelessly self-promotional while I serve the health of my Lord and Lady. ;> blessed beast! ________________________________________________________________________ nocTifer: tyagi@houseofkaos.abyss.com --- http://www.abyss.com/tokus TOKUS-COE Office: 408/2-666-SLUG --- Emergency Contraception:18005849911 ____________...oooOOO---zazas-l@hollyfeld.org---OOOooo..._____________ To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe" to zazas-l-request@hollyfeld.org To unsubscribe your@email.com send "unsubscribe your@email.com" To subscribe send "subscribe" to zazas-l-request@hollyfeld.org http://www.hollyfeld.org/heaven
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